Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of drawing. They’re mostly quick sketches and doodles, but at least it’s something. I went from doing none, to trying to draw as often as I can. My job doesn’t really involve much illustration, and I’ve been feeling very rusty. Plus I have a few years of catching up to do! I spent a lot of time focusing on helping others with their goals and ignoring mine. Realizing this very late, I’m trying to get my motivation back. I want to feel excited about my work again, but it’s tough.
I received a copy of The Perfect Bait by Bobby Chiu from a co-worker of mine, who turns out, is friends with Bobby and runs the Vancouver Schoolism group! Anyway, I read the book and it got me motivated to start drawing as much as I can again. Even if I don’t feel like it, I’ve been picking up that sketchbook and pencil and just drawing anything.
I’ve always been a fan of Bobby’s messages. I used to listen to his podcasts while I worked and get inspired by what he had to say. Needless to say, the book helped me bring some perspective to my own work. Of course, I still beat myself over it. I mean just today, I was beating myself up over some designs I had to do for work. I just felt horrible about myself and wanted to produce better but frustrated with my constraints. But alas, life goes on. I just have to move past it and learn from it and do better next time.
Coming home to do my work has helped me de-stress. I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure lately and sometimes I just need to unwind with mindless doodles that don’t have to mean anything. I’m very much looking forward to my trip to San Francisco at the end of the month. I really need a break! This will be my first “vacation” since 2007. Holy. :) I sure don’t give myself much time to relax.